So, umm wow havent been on here in a while. I had like a million messages. Mostly from creeps. O well. But yeah a lot of things have happened in my life. For the good and bad. Hearts have broken, dreams have been crushed, you know the usual. Practically failing some classes. But whatever. IDGAS. Really, i dont. But whatever. Ive really come to love The Office. Wow, that was random. Ummm, okbye. :P
I dont think I could live without them. They are my rock. My security. If they werent there for me, I dont think I would be able to live another day on this God forsaken planet. People are always talking about how they cant trust their so called "friends", and that makes me even more grateful that I have a handful of GREAT friends that I can rely on for anything. Sure they have their flaws, but thats what makes them them and I love the for that.
Throughout this past year, there has been a LOT of drama (mostly about me). I know I am a drama queen and start a lot of fights/arguments/stuff, but I always stay friends with them. No matter what anyone says to us or about us, it cant hurt us or bring us down. If one of us gets hurt, the others are there to back her up. If we are hurt, they are there to patch up the holes and be a shoulder to cry on. This year I've lost some friends and I've gain some, but I think it's for the best.
Im not sure Im over him yet. When you like someone for over a year, it takes a while to stop. But then there's the other guy. I really dont know what's going on with him. I dont think he has clue that I like him at all. Well, besides just as friends. The thing is I'm kind of afraid to even admit I like him. He's not the sort of guy that is.... i dont know likable? datable? But its so easy to talk to him, and when I do, I can actually be myself and not try to impress him. And then there's this girl that I think he likes, but he denies it......its all just a mess. My whole life is a mess. But I manage. Barely. But then he IMs me and everythings okay. For now.
So, today was the first day back from break. It was horrible like I expected. The classes were fine and normal, but the people just made me want to go hide under a desk. I cant stand anyone at my school anymore. Well, except my friends, the few i have. I really, really want to move away from all of this non sense and meet new people and just start over. Im so sick of the people here. It would be absolutely amazing if I could just pick up move. That is my new dream. To get out of this little town and move somewhere where no one knows anything about me. And I will wish on every 11:11, until I have a dream come true. I may sound corny but I really dont care anymore.